Sunday Nov 28th 2010

Sunday Nov 28th 2010

Chaos ramblings-

I've been really sick this last week,not being able to eat or drink really deduces the quality of life an individual has. I had to see the doctor 3 days in a row and now I'm on penicillin meds for another 7 days. I'm dying for a drink but surprisingly I'm only hungry when I smell food. I can get down watered down fruit ice blocks which are really soothing.

All this time stuck inside has given me time to think, which is both good and bad at the same time.
Did some writing last night, was rather therapeutic, not particularity brilliant work but thought I might share anyway :

We are all lone, despite whether we acknowledge it or not
But it's who we surround ourselves with who make us feel whole

Life is short, days are long and nights are longer
We survive tormented by the future and haunted by our past
Haunted of memories which were once so solid so real, but not only shard of glass remaining penetrated in our heart
Reflections happy times, of seemingly happy places
Surrounded with dreams and plans of what life would be like
only now recognised as just a dream in my fantasy

Do i torture myself? Not even meaning to?
Vowing to night make the same mistakes
only to fall over again and again,
almost like falling down a spiral staircase
gaining momentum as I go

Every new situation has different elements
variation which alter them from the past
yet I still make the same mistakes
what a snowball I am in



Stay lovely everyone
xoxox