So the guy I felt so much for, who wanted "space" so I gave it to him, who told me and promised me that "it's not over" and that " this isn't the end" is now in a relationship with another girl. Photos of themselves with each other on their display pictures and everything, loved up comments on each others pages, it'[s enough to make anyone violently ill, an addition horrid thing I recognise is that so much of what I see I have seen before, on my own page not so many months ago.
Feeling like I have been kicked in the guts and currently nauseous, I am trying to make my head stop spinning and try to find the light at the end of the tunnel.I just had the most amazing weekend with a freind of mine, and to come home and discover all this, it just makes me feel so much when all i want is to feel nothing, nothing at all. I want company but at the same time I recognise that I am no good to anyone as company while in the mood I am in.
Another thing is that he pushed to organise a time and date to meet me and get a book of his that he let me borrow, only to bail at the last minute, and when I mean last minute, I'm talking 10:30 the night before the morning of the meeting, it was just lucky I happened to check my facebook before bed that night, or I would have travelled into the city only to be stood up. Perhaps I do have an angel who is looking out for me, making me have that "feeling" which is why I decided to check be4 bed, or maybe my delusions are encroaching on my daily life as well as my love ( or lack there of) life.
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